Coming back to the Heart of Worship

Its just so GRREEAATT to see charis coming up here what more is from XS...
though i am out of XS but still has been on my heart to see Youths coming out into mission and be expose to the different areas of what the Lord is doing in this world.

Has been a great encouragement to me when Pathmakers first formed and after 2 years it is continueing it's vision and purpose. I am glad i can be part of this team and seeing this team coming to the field where i am serving in.

My view from the field side is....
It is a breakthrough to the villagers and has proven to the people that Sporeans are dilligent and especially Xtians who want to serve the Father is willing to surrender and serve His people out of their comfort zone.
- toilet? OUt in the forest with perfect view of the natural and being "intouch" with nature
- Water? No constant flow of water and what more hot water.... nothing! Unable to bath daily under hot water... buying drinking water (not from the tap)
- Bed? Hardly... sleeping bags, squeezed together...
- Food? "Abundent" "Overflowing" "Mount everest" providence and not abling to finish but do not want to offend the culture/people
- Transport? No system in the traffic/traffic jam and squeezed in tiny taxis

Ppl reading my blog, these are the basic in Spore but the trippers has overcomed all these during their stay here... 2 thumbs up PATHMAKERS!

During the stay of Pathmakers, i am very encouraged to once again to come back to the Heart of Worship & i know is the strength of XS/charis. Having the team to come down to sophia hm to worship and pray for them, really have shown a great aspect of worship to the girls.

Having being busy with my language exam and the water project is really tough and becoming a little stress... i also hardly visit my girls and when the team arrives i was in the village together with them and after that we left for Pokhara for rest and the day we arrive back in the capital, the time where we held a worship session with the girls, i realized that i am so so deeply missing them...

Then the next day, we had a xmas party with them... so nice to see them dancing and singing and also abling to watch their performances in LSA. I can to kind of spend a little more time with them.. and the next day after the team leaves, had a prayer session for them before they leave for their homes. I am glad i am able to give them hugs and kisses before they leave...

Now there's like only 6 of them left... is a great opportunity for me to spend time with these 6girls. Now we are going caroling... the weather here is like freezing now!!!

There's this part of me that the Lord is moving... i do not know how to explain but all i know is whenever i see someone who is hurting or spiritually attacked, my heart goes out to them so much and i just wanna go and hugged them and i will just weep together with them... i never had this side of me before.... I recalled 2incidents.

- When 1 gal came to me and cried, i just hugged her and ask her whatz wrong? Then as she shares, i just kept weeping and prying for her and listen her out...

- In Phulbari, this boy who has some fears in him, i jus hugges him with no thoughts of how many days this boy didnt bathe or bugs in his hair... i just hugged him and weeped...

In this two incidents, i felt the Lord's love and presence just fell on them... I felt that as i hugged them, is an assurance to them that the Lord is hugging them.

I am still discovering what the Lord is moving in my life in this area for this season...

Are we like the Israelites???

Been a while since i last blog... been busy & lazy too hahahaha

Oh last Thur, a teacher from ACS came & is staying with me. She's only 24(1yr older than me) and is a fun loving girl to hang out with... and i guess G. brought her here to make me go for the international chch.... I went last Sun & was expecting the Ps to be preaching but he was away & another lady preached. Woah is like 15-20mins only & hits the point & lifts my spirit.

She talked abt Moses & the Israelies. The Israelites simply love to be on a pirateship. At one time, they will be praising G for His wonderful acts & each time they face difficulties, they swing t o the other end & start complaining...

I will admit that sometime i am like the Israelites... I am so happy & excited to hear the L leading me to this & that but when i face some problems... i start questioning -" heh! Did i walk wrongly? DId i hear wrongly? Father, u gonna be kidding for such issues to be happening... I walked in ur plans & directions but why stil this happens...." DO u do that too?

But anyway, this preacher shared her journey the L lead her to Np & the struggles she faced... but each time she feels discourage or doubt about the work of G... she looked into her journal.
I too hv a journal beside this blog and i started to journal since i heard the L's callin upon my life.. since 2003... i enjoy just looking back at how the L leads me to where i am today....

I do not doubt but many a times, i need a reminder of how the L leads, just like the Israelites, they need to be reminded of the goodness of G. but they failed to remember.

Let's not forget what the Father call each one of us to do...

Are we too busy being fruitful or fruitless?

After having internet access in my house... its been a while for such lifting in my spirit & a great reminder...

I will have to confess this that its been a little fairy's wheel in my spiritual life...I am lazy to go for international fellowship cause i know no one there & it is really different when u attend a chch where u serve & u know the people whom u worships together with...

So am i out of fellowship? Nope! Totally not... I may not be in an international chch but i am in a local N.pli chch.. I serve there as a Sunday school teacher, join in the women fellowship, youth fellowship, attend pryer meetings & house fellowships... with the new sound mixer we have, i guess i am too serving in the sound hahahah doesn't all these sound so familiar to where i come from? Charis.

i seriously miss Charis worship, ppl i serve with especially in XS(youth). The only difference is, the language. It may not be in my heart language but each time when i get to hear sermons in English, i am all ready to absorb as much as i can - like a sponge. I am hungry for more of His Word. I guess that's why i must and i should be trying to go to the international chch on Sundays.... guess this will be a request fr.me to u guys who are reading this blog... then wat do u do on Sundays glo? I have my very own sermon series at home. I will relisten to the cds of Kenneth Hagin, downloads of Keith moore, my Rhema class cds... but whatz really lacking is a group of ppl - fellowship. Here here let me first explain, not that i do not have fellowships BUT not like having a group of ppl whom u know for a long time, ppl who knows me inside out, like Pris, Pat & many others...

After having internet, i download Joyce Meyer's podcast daily & also Joel Osteen's wkly podcast. Now, i will have to say i am encouraged by these ppl & thank G for podcast & internet hahhaha - Technology...

Today, after service, i came home on my cycle, made lunch & prep for dinner cause i plan to go out. I took my bicycle & cycled on the main road -ring road & down pass the school that my sophia girls are studying & down to Sophia hm to see how are th girls doing with their preparations for exams, starting tomorrow... pls pls DiDi(sister) gloria pry for us, for our exams... so here i am also sharing with u guys to keep these lovely girls in your pryers too.

Oh man! I love to cycle during winter time cause its so cooling & refreshing (hmm besides the pollution hahaha). I was cycling & i was also taking time to appreciate the beautiful scenary, snow capped mountains surrounding the valley, just perfect!

U muz be wondering why i tittled tis blog as busy being fruitful or fruitless...?!
Joyce Meyer has been talking about time & how busy we all can be but are we being busy with a good purpose that will bear fruits or just busy bcos everyone is busy & showing how hardworking u are?

I reflected on this & felt is nice to share with all of u.
Recently, i been a little more busier than normal due to the coming Youth concert, involved in SOund (more prac), prep for language class test & exams, prep for a water project where charis youths are coming..(yea can't wait) I got a little busy & tired too that i a recovering fr season cold & cough. I hardly go down to Sophia hm to spend time with the sister who is working there & of course my gals there too...
Am i busy or just making myself busy bcos i want to be occupied? I decided, I will put aside time for language studies(daily-noons), for visiting my girls (twice/thrice a wk), writting emails back to my family wkly & word of encouragements to frenz back in Spore & also daily sms of a word of encouragement to my team of frenz here like i used to do for my cell grp...

I want to be busy being fruitful. Joyce Meyer asked this, Have u been a good stewardship to the time given to U? Have u used your time to build frenships? To encourage someone as long as it is call Today?
I am challenged! I want to use my time well, even if is just a min of a call to someone to encourgae or pry... so don't be surprise if u get an overseas call from me!!!

Let's be accountable for the time given to us from above...

It's another blog by: Juz me - glo

Woah wat a scenic view...

He is so creative & indeed only He is the creator...

how i wish i hv my SLR camera with me... as i was walking down the road to school, right at my eye level, i was shocked to see this picture & at the moment i thought is just something unreal.... cos it has been such a long time i ever seen this beautiful scene.
SNOW CAP MOUNTAIN RANGE!!!!!

It is like a postcard and i am jealous of the ppl here where they get to live in this country with such beautiful scene. I just kept looking at the beautiful scene that is just right in front of me... how i wish i can just sit down with a cup of nice coffee with sofe music at the background... just as all these thoughts were running through my mind, vehicals on the roads just kept horning & then thick layers of dust just floats infront of me... quickly, i held my breathe with hands covering my mouth and nose, i pick up speed to school.

Yesterday i was a little angry with a team mate over a coming project... i actually knew right from the start that all the factors and differences will occur and i did try to avoid & lift it up to G.... but i still fail. I remember when i had to work with someone back in Spore with the same character and twice i worked with him and we clash bcos of different working style but we complement each other bcos of our different strengths.

This time is a hmm a little different... culture and language too. And i don't really know this teammate of mine so i have been really careful but not till yesterday bcos the dates are drawing so near, nothing is done and instead of asking or finding out more, everything is at still... someone like me is a super task orientated person and especially when dates draw closer, my "D" - Domineering comes out really strong. I felt real bad and i spend the whole night & morning pondering and prying too as i had to meet him again the next day (today) to tighten things up.

Thank U Father for His intervene cause i could feel His presence in the mist of the whole meeting and getting the things shared and to start.

hmm i wonder i waould even call this expectation? or is just no sense of urgency? or patience ?

I guess is my expectations & also i personally has slowed down so much that even when things are not done, dates drawing closer, i just loss my control & ugly old-self just comes up... am i too fast for this person or am i just lossing my patience with him? G. teach me ur ways and help me... continue to guide me esp this time of working on this project. This is my earnest pryer to U!

Hit by another homesick wave...

I do not know why...
Just yesterday evening as i sat infront of my laptop to start checking my mails and chat with friends, there was like a wave of loneliness hit me. I look to my right, where my family photos are, tears start to fill my eyes & i just broke into tears. As i was msning lyn, i kept crying... it felt like i compressed the feeling for a period of time but i guess is just normal to miss home but not a daily affair...

I start to ask Father why is it so tough to be doing His work. Why isn't His plans being made plain and straight forward?! Then i answer all my questions with just, look at JC... It wasn't easy for him either but JC completed his purpose...

Nothing beats doing & being at the right place where Father wants me to. That's the best & most fulfilling in life. If i am able to turn time back, i will still be choosing this path even though i know these feelings will still occur.

How do u feel where u are now ? any regrets? rethink again of Jeremiah29:11
"11For I know the plans I have for you," declares the Lord ,
"plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. "

There's such joy in tis Psalm...

Today's service started with Psalm96

" 1Sing to the Lord a new song; sing to the Lord , all the earth.
2Sing to the Lord , praise his name; proclaim his salvation day after day.
3Declare his glory among the nations, his marvelous deeds among all peoples.
4For great is the Lord and most worthy of praise; he is to be feared above all gods.
5For all the gods of the nations are idols, but the Lord made the heavens.
6Splendor and majesty are before him; strength and glory are in his sanctuary.
7Ascribe to the Lord , O families of nations, ascribe to the Lord glory and strength.
8Ascribe to the Lord the glory due his name; bring an offering and come into his courts.
9Worship the Lord in the splendor of his holiness; tremble before him, all the earth.
10Say among the nations, "The Lord reigns." The world is firmly established, it cannot be moved; he will judge the peoples with equity.
11Let the heavens rejoice, let the earth be glad; let the sea resound, and all that is in it;
12let the fields be jubilant, and everything in them. Then all the trees of the forest will sing for joy;
13they will sing before the Lord , for he comes, he comes to judge the earth. He will judge the world in righteousness and the peoples in his truth."

I am deeply touched by this psalm that as i closed my eyes to start worshiping God, there's this fire in my spirit that wanna shout & tell everyone HOW GREAT IS THE LORD THAT WE WORSHIP!!!

As i re-read this Psalm again & again, tears start to filling my eyes as i think about the goodness of our God, how magnificent & GREAT is He that no other names will i call out but His & only His alone...

My day...
This morning is freezing....and i was wearing layers & layers and indeed winter is here...

Today's service i am encouraged by the Word of God preached by P.Erick & been awhile since i heard english being preached...
I was coughing so badly during service that i decided to just not sing & be still before the Lord. As i lift my hands up to the Lord, i felt His presence filling the place & i prayed in my heart that the members of this church will experience His presence.

After service there was a women fellowship (heehee now i am a woman... i am still adjustin to that age thingy heehee) and i was sharing the word of God to them. I was sharing on James 1:2-8. About how should we consider trials & temptations in our lives? Do we go through it with a big burden in us or should we like what James asks us to do... "Consider it all JOY when you fall into various trials..."

1)Why JOY? Bcos (psalm23) His staff & rod are with us! He prepared a table (feast) in the presence of our enemies! (1cor 10:23) He provide a way up for us to stand up under it!.... etc there's so many verses tell us that we are not alone facing the problems BUT He is with us & He gives us the solution & lead us through the problem & not away from the problem. Can we learn from David to face the "giants" in our lives?

2) Going thru the trials produce Perseverance and after letting that to grow, it makes us mature, complete & NOT lacking anything!!!
Wow! The moment i saw that... i feel like jumping hahahha (i am not charismatic thou i am fr Charis MC heehee)

And that doesn't make a clear point that we should consider ALL JOY when face all/various trials & temptations... Come on ppl, the Lord doesn't make all these trials it is the world we live in that causes trials (who's the prince of this world? Mr Sa.Tan)... So we rejoice cos God will see us through and when we go through it, we are also being molded & shaped & mature too...

I personally is very very encouraged as i prepare the sharing for today... i pray that those who were there are encouraged...

just thot that blogging this out to share this Truth & excitment with all of you who are reading it...

Weather has dropped...

Today is the day of Light Festival here also known as Tihar (Deepavali). Lights are hanged all round the houses and special rituals are also being performed. They will have special drawings at the gate/doorways of their houses or business shops to welcome the god of fortune to come in.

It kind of sadden my heart for we are called to be Lights of this world... i asked myself, how much light have i shone off to people of this nation. I had to ask the Lord for forgiveness for i have not done much to pre-believers...

Besides all these, i enjoyed most about today is i went to get my chinese tea ceremony gown sewn. I am looking forward to see my gown all sewn on the 27th Nov for the trial first then once everything is confirmed, i get to bring it back to Spore then to Thailand in Jan for my wedding shoots.

Lately, the mood for my wedding is getting more & more into me heee hee *shy* ....
I am excited yet i know that this is another new phase to my life now, having someone special to be part of my life forever... i know there's going to be many adjustments in my personal life from then on... one hand is filled is excitment yet a little fearful too... guess most importantly is just have God to be in the center of this relationship & marriage too... both of us need to seek the Lord first even placing Him 1st in each of our lives rather than each other...


After staying at Sophia's home for 3 weeks, i just moved back into my little house & felt lonely with no girls to spend my time with... its been like 1 wk since i moved back, i didnt have the time to visit my girls... really miss them so much.. their smiles.. the fun times being together, the quiet times just sitting beside them and their hands holding mine... times when i had to discipline time... just cleaning the house together with them... oh man how much i miss them even just 1wk that i didnt see them...

Today, the weather has dropped tremendously... it was a cool day until it started to rain in the afternoon... then even up to midnight, its freezing cold... i guess i will declare officially that WINTER IS HERE!!!!

Time for layers of clothes to be worn... oh man tomorrow is service & i am leading in the women fellowship after service... still preparing what to teach & after that is the band practice for the coming concert on 8th Dec - Winter Praise Festival

got to go now prepare for tomorrow...

Glo glo on blog too... heehee at last:)

Hi to all

This will be a good start for me to be updating all of you about my life in the m.field. Sorry i will still be careful with my location online especially.

I can't to share with you all about life here. My ups & downs especially alone in another country where i have no choice but only look to HIM who says that He will never leave me nor forsake me. I am simply standing on that promise He gave & spending my life here with HIM to be molded by Him & be a blessing of living water to others. I am just a vessal like any of you out there... let's together run this race together & 1day able to say,
" I have fought a good fight, i have finished the race, i have kept the faith."

Be a blessing to others
glo