It Could Only be Him...

Had a tiring week battling with some spiritual issues and i know i have won the victory but physically i need a good rest...

I simply follow the leading of the HS to talk to some of my girls and there was breakthrough within their lives. 1 girl felt condemnation within herself & also her sister... 1 girl felt confuse and felt that she is a burden to her family... and 1 was dealing with issues of pride... but all these girls have walked out all these in victory...

I have never moved into this area so strongly in sophia home but it is time... the girl who felt condemed, immediately, there was restoration by the HS. The girl who felt confuse and a burden to her mother, she said less then 5 sentenses and with my own finite mind that's all i could know but only the Lord's opening of my spiritual eyes & ears, I was used by Him to speak words that pierced right into her heart. She just can't stop tearing and those tears were tears of victory to me as i know the evil one is working hard within this ministry to destroy but he lost! The one dealing with pride, broke through when i felt to challenge her to go and hug 1 of the sister to be reconciled.

I am just a vessal whom the Lord uses to speak to them... i take no glory cos i know if is my own works, it will not be moving strong... Our girls are experiancing the move of God within their lives... i am excited...

1 more girl to go to talk to but time is not on my side and i think the evil is trying hard to make me to avoid talking to her. Today, i shared on 1 john 4 with all the girls and taught on the leading of the HS and testing the Spirit. So many of them have experiance the move of God over the past week and they really became excited to hear more. This girl came to me and said, " DiDi, you have something to tell me right?" so the other girls who were being taught to respect the time that God wants to spend with individual started to show respect to what the girl wanted to know what the Lord has been speaking to me about her. But there are others who are also not in the group so i don't think is the right time so i told her, when is time, you will get to know but keep praying. With that excitment in her, i was glad and know she is ready to listen.

Another breakthrough, today, i bought a cake to celebrate our girls bday as i heard 3 months they have forgotten to celebrate. But anyway, my bday was also being celebrated. When was asked who would like to pray for me, the new girl - Diki raised her hand and said she wants to pray for me. Everyone was shocked because she is not a believer yet but she is keen in praying a blessing for me. I could see that she really open herself up to me and would come to hug and play with me when i come to sophia home. I only knew her for 1 wk and she was willing to do that i was surprised.

Oh gosh 1 more to thank God about was, when the Lord was leading me to gather the older girls to pray about bringing in 2 other girls, we obeyed what the Lord was leading us to and we simply inform them that we will accept but on the other hand, that very day was also the last day of transport to come into the capital and the next bus will be after election and we will take that as a sign that God does not want us to keep the 2 girls.

1.5 days passed, the 2 girls arrived. They are very under mal-nourished and our older girls also could see it could only be God who spoke to them about bringing them while praying and we voted with their eyes closed and majority vote that they felt God's peace to bring them in and God honor that by bringing the girls to board the last bus too...

All these are all just amazing and i am here to testify the goodness of God and nothing else but It Could Only be Him... i'm awe and humbled by Him.

Sch here and sch there.... back to student life

Coming to a month back here and also i am currently also studying for a Master's in Divinity in a theological school here...

Church History is the 1st session sound so exciting hor... hahahhaa

To be frank, the topic is exciting but not the person who is teaching... I enjoy history generally as it helps me understand why things turn out the way now is all due to the past histories.

So now my life is morning language tuition & then if i can squeeze time, i will head down to sophia home and then rush down to the theological sch (KIT). Why rush? Time always flies off so quickly when i am with my girls....

The first wk i was not able to spend time with them as i was busy with a guest, showing her routes to go about and not she is independent already hahahaha.... our girls had also finished their exams and now is play time i guess.... we been playing our own style of cricket and i will be organizing a football match this coming wkend... oh and then is my exam this Mon on history.... i completed my assignment(40%), 12page writing on Theological controversies of the early church, and this mon is mid exam which stands 20% and final exams on the 7th will be 40%... sound so stress huh hahahaha...

i think next topic on the 14th Apr is Gospel of John... yea... i really enjoy that very much when i was studying in Rhema...

Oh this KIT is a part time course so is 2 hrs at least daily from 4-6pm and i will only graduate with a M.Div after 3 years hahahah.... and guess what?! i will not be graduating in 3 yrs time as i will be heading back Spore for my wedding... i will just earn the credits and if is the Lord's will for me to continue, i get to continue with these credits...

Oh i have another exciting news for those who know Sophia home girls.... we have an email account for them and i will be teaching them to email. So you guys can always wrte to them erm not just guys okie i meant gals n guys hahahahah

sophiahome@wlink.com.np

Photos of Loong n Me

Nothing beats love from your very own family...

Its midnight here, i just finished watching a show "Into the Wild". Talks about a teenager who did very well in his education later ran away after giving all his money away and was never to be found again till his death which is 3yrs later i think. The reason why he ran away from home simply because he didnt have a happy home and felt life there's more to fame, money...etc.

At the last phase of his life, he felt total loneliness and he tried to get out of the wild and head home but he was trapped in the wild. And just before his death, he wrote these words in the book, "happiness is to be shared".

I simply cried not becos is a sad movie but it made me think about my family back home...

1 of my girls from the home left us last Dec simply because her uncle is willing to take care of her. She is an orphan. Both her parents died of AIDS and was living with aged grandma. We took her in simple because she is an orphan. She expresses that didn't want to come back to us because she didn't want to leave all alone. She isn't alone... she is with other 26 girls. But deep inside her is still a longing to be her family though her parents may have gone. We are happy to give her up as nothing beats the Love & Care showered from her family.

I love my family back home very dearly and i miss them dearly too... and i knew the Lord had also given me love from a family in church when i was going through devastating period of my life when i came to know the Lord. No matter how much love they have showered in my life, i will not forget but it still can't beat love from my very own parents...

I write this as a tribute to my parents that no matter what had happen, i still love and respect them. I cried because i can't be with them now. I am crying because i didn't grow up with having both of them in my life. I am crying because now i am not even seeing them growing old.

Is this what Christ was saying, "Come, follow me."?

I will have to say though is a struggling process but nothing beats being in the right place where He calls me to be. I know and i just know and know and know...

If i am not out here, i will not be even blogging this...

Back to where I am called...

Been a long time since i blog... 2months plus already has flew pass with a short glimsp of Singapore and now back here. A short summary of my stay back in SIngapore
- fruitful, get to go for cells, church services, meeting up with friends and relatives.
- refreshing, get to sit in my ex-bible sch.. fed on the word of God and also refreshed in spirit

This week is Holy Week!
I started this week with the book Romans. As i was reading from chpter 1-6, I knew the Lord was speaking to me on chpters 5 & 6.

Chpter5 - talks about through 1 man's disobedience, sin came into the world. And through 1 man's death, there is now a doorway to be saved eternally and be reconciled back with the Father.

chpter6- baptism: the dying of the life and the resurraction of a new life. This is not something new to me but it is a reminder of this good fri and Easter SUn. The word walking in the newness of life hits me.

This Passion wk is not just a rememberence of what Christ did but is also a reminder of how i shld be living this life out especially being baptised, now an ambassador of His great harvest.

This is my prayer for 2008: " Search Me O Lord, Help Me of Lord! Teach Me to walk in Your ways. Mold me into the likeness of CHrist as i desire to walk in the newness of Life that You have given to me through your Son, J.C!" Amen

Home Sweet Home...

I been back for 4days already... adjusting to the hot & sticky Spore...

I feel different this trip back home... I can't describe but probably i am just no longer the same... I am happy to be back home but not as happy as i thought i would be. Its always nice to be catching up with friends and hear how's their lives been and where God is leading them into...

I enjoyed most so far is to go for cell. I guess i just miss this kind of fellowship and seeing new faces. I believe this trip, God is also molding me and using me to influence others & bless others too.

There are some things in my heart that i desire to do & i think is what the Lord is placing on my heart... Some people i will intentionally meet up with them... some things are on my heart & i trust the Lord will speak to me to them on the very day i meet them...

Many people said that they can see that i have a great radiance and seem even happier. I guess is the excitment of knowing that i am in the right place at the right time. On the other hand is also the excitment for my wedding preparations... thou i dunno really know where to start hahahha

I do feel alittle selfish on my part for leaving my mom all alone in Spore and also my dad asked me why can't i work in Spore and yet still doing what i am doing now... its hard to explain it in chinese and what more he is a pre-believer. Pray alongside with me for my dad to understand and come to know the Lord. I will have to say it is difficult to share the gospel to your love ones and what more i dun really have a relationship with him(some of u will know what i mean). I am struggling in this area...

Oh tue-thur i will be in Johor for workshop & Yesh!!! I will be roomates with Aunty Pat hahaahah(oops)

Time for catch up with Pat. I know Pat for like 10years & our relationship grew from me being a member of a cell and she is my cgl to now, a level of intimacy that we ask each other about our walk with God & calling all these... I really appreciate her very much and i Thank God for her. Times really fly so fast... from Jars of Clay and now both of us are in full time. Its really nice & beautiful to see how the Lord mold us individually and bring us crosspaths & producing a beautiful relationship... oh man... though i am still in Spore, i know i am going to miss her very much after this trip...

me again but just another country for a time being... glo

Watz after J.C Birth?

The last sat of 2007, last service of the year, i had the privilege to preach for the 1st time. What's after J.C birth? that's my sermon title. I shared on 2 verses.

John 1:14” The Word became flesh and made His dwelling among us. We have seen His glory and the glory of the One and Only, who came from the Father, full of grace and truth.”

Luke2:52 that “ Jesus grew in wisdom and stature , and in favor with God and men.”

We celebrate every year on the 25th Dec- Xmas, birth of Christ. And we see from John 1:14 that the Word who is in the begining, who is also with God in the begining, became Flesh - Man. The verse doen't stop that... it continues on "... made His dwelling among us..." His purpose of becoming Man, is to Dwell Among Man. From the dwelling among man, we get to see His Glory who is Full of Grace & Truth!

J.C didn't popped out of Mary's womb as a full grown man. He is like any of us, a baby and grew. This certainly proofs He is 100% Man. From Luke 2:52, we see that Christ grew Spiritually too. J.C didn't just grew physically, He grew spiritually too. We do not see the childhood of J.C but we sure know while His childhood period is missing in the bible, we know He was growing-up physically and spiritually too. J.C spent 30yrs growing before re-appearing when John the baptise was baptising.

J.C took 30yrs and continued growing in His last 3yrs of ministry. J.C being 100% God & 100% has definitely displayed His full life on earth- growing Spiritually, what more we as men, shouldn't we be growing too?

God doesn't expect us to change or grow immediately or over night.... We see tt J.C took years to change... we should have that attitude of we are the clay, He is the Potter, shaping, molding us each year.

Challenge: What's after J.C birth? CHange! Growth!

Are we going to just let this coming new year to pass us with no change? Let's not let the borth of J.C & His death invain... The next time we celebrate Xmas, we know is also a celebration of our spiritual growth through His birth & death.

From this sermon prep, i have learnt so much from it. i wrote this here to share with u what's on the Father's Heart. And especially for this brand new year - 2008.

Happy New Year & Blessed New Year!

together we grow in Him...

glo