Nothing beats love from your very own family...

Its midnight here, i just finished watching a show "Into the Wild". Talks about a teenager who did very well in his education later ran away after giving all his money away and was never to be found again till his death which is 3yrs later i think. The reason why he ran away from home simply because he didnt have a happy home and felt life there's more to fame, money...etc.

At the last phase of his life, he felt total loneliness and he tried to get out of the wild and head home but he was trapped in the wild. And just before his death, he wrote these words in the book, "happiness is to be shared".

I simply cried not becos is a sad movie but it made me think about my family back home...

1 of my girls from the home left us last Dec simply because her uncle is willing to take care of her. She is an orphan. Both her parents died of AIDS and was living with aged grandma. We took her in simple because she is an orphan. She expresses that didn't want to come back to us because she didn't want to leave all alone. She isn't alone... she is with other 26 girls. But deep inside her is still a longing to be her family though her parents may have gone. We are happy to give her up as nothing beats the Love & Care showered from her family.

I love my family back home very dearly and i miss them dearly too... and i knew the Lord had also given me love from a family in church when i was going through devastating period of my life when i came to know the Lord. No matter how much love they have showered in my life, i will not forget but it still can't beat love from my very own parents...

I write this as a tribute to my parents that no matter what had happen, i still love and respect them. I cried because i can't be with them now. I am crying because i didn't grow up with having both of them in my life. I am crying because now i am not even seeing them growing old.

Is this what Christ was saying, "Come, follow me."?

I will have to say though is a struggling process but nothing beats being in the right place where He calls me to be. I know and i just know and know and know...

If i am not out here, i will not be even blogging this...