Felt like i was dropped down from Mount Everest...

Since 3months ago, HRC (Himalayan Rock for Christ) - a band that i joined as a sound technician, we started our practices twice a week for 2-3hrs each prac. And 2 days before the Praise Festival which was yesterday, we played at Singma - restaurant. The sound was great for everyone and all the band members enjoyed playing and singing. It was a confident pusher event for everyone of us.

I seeked for pryers as this is the 1st time HRC is holding this Praise Festival combining with another Xtian Band, and I was stress over the setting of the sound board as our band was the 2nd band to be leading. We had an hr sound checked and everyone were happy with the sound check. I jot down every single knob on the individual channels and my confident level was as high as everyone in the band too. Then after that the other band did their sound check and I left the place to get a quick bite as i was hungry.

The entire hall was jam packed. A hall that caters to 700 people, we even filled the steps with 2-3 rows of ppl. We estimated about 900++people came and there were some standing up too.
When the dancers kicked in then the other band led the everyone to a time of worship, it was beautiful.

But as i listened carefully, i realized it was not coming out from the housespeakers but only from the stage monitors and amplifiers. (those of u whose ears are trained to hear, u get what i mean even though i may be standing way up away from the stage...) I gave my feedback to the sound crew of the other band and i didn't want to interfere and i stepped back.
Their band used up a full 32channel board and they have 20plus ppl in the band, so even when the housespeakers actually failed, their band didnt sound that obvious that something was wrong unless u stand in front of the speakers or your ears are trained to hear and i am serious about ears trained to hear.

Then came HRC. Our band is made up of only 13ppl on stage. I came on to the sound board and i had 10mins to get all the knobs adjusted back to the position i had for sound checked. And when the 1st song played, the sound which initially didn't come out from the housespeakers became very very obvious for our band due to the size. And i re-checked all my settings-nothing wrong with the sound board. I panicked and tried to troubleshoot the problem. I sent the sound crew (sound company guys) to check the speakers and so on and so forth....

The entire band was horrified and panicked too... ahhhhhh..... nightmare for me....

To cut the story short, we troubleshoot the problem only at the 4th song... someone, turned down the compressor for the entire system of which there was an agreement between the sound technicians of both bands and the sound company that we will not touch their equalizers nor their compressors after sound has been checked - only the sound board.

For the past 3events i worked with this sound company, nothing went wrong and really enjoyed the working relationship and i trust them and they trust me...

We did an investigation with the sound company, we can't exactly point our fingers at anyone, but our band and the sound company know that neither myself nor the sound company guys touched that....

Anyway, after yesterday's event, i literally felt like i was dropped down from Mount Everest. I was in total shocked, felt embarrass, couldn't worship, i just teared as i was packing up... Many nice brothers and sisters -in-Christ, came and encouraged me and Thank me for the good job, but i don't feel that i even deserved those praises...

My band members all encouraged me and i couldn't say a single word out but tears just kept running down my cheeks... and even today's briefing, all of them assured me again and acknowledges my capability and said they all had a good sound check and for the next praise festival, if we are combining, there should only be 1 sound engineer and they all said, i should be the sound engineer.... I'm so touched by all of them... and I'm very very thankful to God for giving me such a sweet group of band members whom i can be serving together with...

Though the entire event seem to be a failure, all of us may be discouraged but we all agreed that we are all on the right track and also this brings greater unity among all of us.

I will have to feel proud of this, my band members were so encouraging, they encouraged me with touch, hugs and words even though it was horrible feeling for me... the other band's sound crew was been accused and blaming him for the faults by the band members... i felt bad for him but on the other hand I'm proud to present to all of you reading this blog -

My Band - H.R.C - Himalayan Rock for Christ!!

(Ps Erick-Acoustic Guitarist, Shanti-Vocal manager, Puii-Worship leader, Kim-Worship Leader, Asheley- Vocalist, Vesh- Worship Leader, Binod- Worship Leader, Michael- Worship Leader, Chuba- Worship Leader, Moa- Lead E.Guitarist, Te-ja- Rhythm E.Guitarist, Ah-to- Bassist, James-Keyboardist and Gloria-Sound Engineer)

All Glory be to God Who Sits Upon the Throne

My Role... a wife to my husband

" However, let each man of you (without exception) love his wife a (being in a sense) his very own self; and let the wife see that she respects and reverences her husband (that she notices him, regards him, honors him, prefers him, venerates and esteems him; and that she defers to him, praises him and love and admires him exceedingly)" Eph 5:33 (amp)

When i read this verse either NIV or NKJV version does not hit me as hard as this amplified version. I realized that my role as a wife-to-be towards Loong, my husband-to-be, I have to Notice him, Regards him, Honors him, prefers him, venerates and esteems him, defers to him, praises n love n admires him EXCEEDINGLY!

God spoke to me about areas i need to change and to be playing the role as God intended wives to be as to their husbands. God created Adam first and then God finds that it is no good for Adam to be alone and came Eve from the rib of Adam's. God intended woman to be a helper of her man. In the bible, there are a few prominent events of how women being such an influence - Eve inflence Adam to take the fruit of knowledge, Sarah influence Abraham to sleep with the maid, Queen Esther influence the King...etc

Though most examples i pointed out here, shows the negative influence of women over men, it also shows the "power of influence" women have over men.

My prayer is that, I will be changed by the H.S's help to be the woman, God intended me to be, the power of influence God made me to have over my husband will be of a good influence and a godly helper for my husband.

I'm working towards being a wife that God wants me to be-

Dear Heavenly Father,

let me(gloria, wife-to-be of Loong)see that I (glo) respects and reverences Loong that I(glo) notices him (Loong), regards Loong, honors Loong, prefers Loong, venerates and esteems Loong; and that I (glo)defers to Loong, praises Loong and love and admires Loong exceedingly
(Eph 5:33- prayer)

Love u Lord, In Your Precious Son's Name
Amen!

Another 1 & half month more...

Time passes by so fast and now i left 1.5 month in this country before i head back home for a good 6months.

So many things are on my mind and i'm now training 2 girls to be teaching in the Sunsch while i am away. Just 2wks ago, we launched the children ministry - Wesley Mighty Club. That very same wkend, we had a youth camp too. about 50 youths came to participate. A team from Yishun MC, came and also 2 dance professionals came to join us in this camp. The entire camp was successful but not that it is without any frustration. To work with different organizers and people (diff. culture) causes lots of tension.

Sad to know that, even the girls from sophia home were complaining about someone being unfair in the camp and giving the points to other teams bcos they are from this person's chch.

Overall, could see that our girls are being exposed to mix with other youths and get to see a different set of youths of the capital- their expressions, their thoughts...etc

It has been a busy wk but i sure enjoy hosting the teams from Spore. Probably is bcos i get to see Sporeans:)

Indeed He is the Provider!!! I was just thinking and really keen in getting a pair of hiking shoes(waterproof) due to the places that i go and weather too... the brooks that i got from SAF, just over used by me in all weather... a kind lady, dragged me to aside and asked me to have a look at the hiking shoes in a shop. She said that i should get a pair of gd shoes and it is important to have a gd pair since i walked alot... so i hesitated and i turned to her and look in her eyes, she said, just try and don't worry. At that moment, i was very touched and excited. With much embarassment i tried and she purchased it for me. I appreciated the lady very much and most importantly is that i know it was HIM who placed an impression on her heart.

Thank U for Your Providence in all things! Anyone out there who feels that u are lacking of something or in need for something? I can testified His goodness to the very point of paying off my rent here...

I always dreamt of this and it came true...

Eversince i heard the call of G in my life, i always dreamt of open preaching & showing J.Film show in the village... Just a few days ago, local Pastor, 6girls, 1 young adult, loong and myself set off to a village which is 5hrs drive away from the capital. We literally brought everything to get this event run smoothly... generator, spare diesel, petrol, speakers, mics, laptop, projector..etc

We woke up at 430am and with a few stops inbetween the journey, we arrived at about 1230pm. The journey was pretty smooth except for some of our girls vomitting on the way... upon arriving, rain clouds started to gather and soon it poured. We all prayed and of course some of us had little faith and started planning to do the event the next day. Anyway, i was remindered of James- "double minded".
We had a good rest before the whole programe and the rain still on & off pouring. Just as we were setting up the equipments, it started to drizzle again... with people around us saying this program will be a flop and don't even bother to set it up, just pack up and go... we persisted and we trusted Him.

When we decided to start the program, the rain STOP!!! Praise the Lord!!!

Estimated about 900-1000 people came for this event. We showed a local Christian Movie and because we started late, we ended the whole program at about 1100pm. (Confession: I fell into short sleep inbetween the film:P) We later found out that some villagers had to walk back to their home & they reached home about 1am in the morning!!!!

The very next day, we went tracting. Though i can't speak or share with them, i got my girls to give it out with me and they became my translators....

Besides the entire event, i thank God for a great time to spend with the 6 girls. They all were "high in sugar". We couldn't stop talking and laughing even in wee hours in the morning until we got a knock to remind us to keep it low in volume and sleep early... even how tire i was, i too became high in sugar due to the biscuits i took instead of dinner at 1130pm. YES SUGAR HIGH.... hahahaha

there's just simply so much i like to blog about this trip but i know it will be boring for my readers... therefore i shall put a stop to here...

I need ur prayers!
- Due to tireness, shoulders aching & down with flu package but recovering now
- Piles of work esp video editing yet to start for 4videos
- Marriage prep... going through counselling now...
- Camp coming up on 7th & 8th (expecting 80-100 youths)
- Band prac for a Praise Festival (Big challenge , the band i am in will not be the only band performing but another band too, so stress on the sound board side... no one to help me hahahah)


another time of me writing....

Check-Points in our lives...

" Shepherd the flock of God which is among you, serving as overseers, not by complusion but WILLINGLY, not for dishonest gain but eagarly; nor as being lords over those entrusted to you, but being examples to the flock; and when the Chief Shepherd appears, you will receive the crown of glory that does not fade away.... God resists the proud but gives grace to the humble. Therefore humble yourselves under the mighty hand of God..." 1pet5:2-6

Being a servant of God, this is a great reminder to the team & myself here...(Checkpoints)

1) Serve God's sheep Not by COMPULSION BUT WILLINGLY
How many times have we serve in the different areas started off with a willingness in our hearts and at the later part of our ministry, we started doing it as a drag? we started to feel like a burden, we started to complain, we started to "Oh man, not another one..."

2) Not for dishonest gain BUT EAGERLY
What's the heart attitude when we do things eagerly? Is it bcos we want something out for doing certain thing? Are we doing things so that we can gain something profitable for ourselves?
Let's check on our hearts and when we serve the Lord, we should be serving the Lord we an eagerness in our heart.

3) Not lords over them BUT BEING EXAMPLES to the flock
What is our heart attitude being leaders? Is it bcos of power/authority we have? Don't fall into satan's trap.... Remember how satan tempt J.Christ? "bow to me and i will give you the power, riches of this world..."

Watch our spiritual walk, do not stumble our sheeps. Being examples to the flock as they are being Entrusted to us by God.

4) Who is the Chief Shepherd?
Have we forgotten who is the True Chief SHepherd???? Have we tried /attempt to take the place of the Chief Shepherd? Watch our position & our thoughts!

5) Have we become Proud?
Have we become proud as we serve? Don't forget God gives grace to the humble and resist the proud.

Makes me Wonder...

When i was at the East and looking at the lives of the people there, i started wondering about the lives of the children....

What determines a good future? Doesn't every country has its own defination of good future? Sophia Hm maybe made up of 0.0001percent of children in this country (bad estimation ahhahaha) and we provide them a shelter to stay, regular meals, clothes to wear, school to be educated...etc Is this considered a good future? i hesitate at times... is this our spore definition or is this the world's definition??? This entire country is filled with children who is not educated, who live their lives with their parents working real hard - pushing carts, making crafts... really trying to get something on the next meal...

Probably what Mother Teresa is right about helping the poor & needy to the point that whatever she can do she did it with no thoughts of where the money is going to come from? Whether is it enough for tomorrow? With this amount of money she has for the day, she used it all to help whoever she can help on the very day...

The fact is, we have to separate the children from their parent/s or if they have any... that is something hurting but is there a choice i sometime wonder... on one hand, i know their spirits are saved through this home and in a way, everything else just doesn't matter any longer to me... am i being real? Yes! Cause nothing beats eternity vision.

Have i got anyone saved eversince i entered this country? No... but i am sure that i have impacted lives that will impact lives where there is no language barrel, no culture barrel cos it is their very own ppl impacting their own countryman/woman too.

This year's resolution is to make greater impact, influence the believers to influence others...

Some pics of me in the East